I have never been one to wait well...
When there's something I'm anticipating I simply struggle to find the patience wait for it. Christmas, birthdays, giving gifts to people, celebrations, big life changes, etc.
This season of waiting has been extremely difficult for me. As I'm sure you'd be able to guess, I am impatiently waiting for the arrival of our newest family member. At the beginning of our pregnancy my due date was December 6th. As we reached the first ultrasound the due date was changed to December 16th because of the size of the baby. Here we are December 20th and little man is still happily nestled in my womb.
In my head I still believed the baby would be born closer to the 6th, so you can imagine the amount of turmoil I've been in as I've been on baby watch since the beginning of December. 20+ days of waiting would be difficult for anyone, but for me it's almost torture.
I recently decided that in order to not be absolutely miserable I needed to relegate myself to the fact that I have no control over my body. The Lord has a plan for this little boy and my body knows what to do and when to do it.
As we have been journeying through this season of Advent, we read a devotional each night with the kids, light our advent candle, sometimes sing a song, and end in prayer. With Christmas quickly approaching and the vision of Mary and Jospeh traveling to Bethlehem, I can't help but imagine the stress, anxiety, impatient waiting, and frustration that Mary endured on her journey. A young girl, pregnant, newly married, exhausted, and scared traveling for days only to be refused places to stay because there was no room. I imagine the countless tears she shed while riding on the back of a donkey as they hit every bump along the way. It makes me feel a little silly for my complaining as I wait for our little boy.
I am thankful that from now on as our family begins the month of December and prepare for the birthday of our little boy, I'll be able to better relate to Mary as she journeyed to Bethlehem and gave birth to the Savior of the World. What an incredible reminder for me this Christmas season.
As we are still waiting on Baby Boy to be born this may be our last blog/interaction until after Christmas, so I want to take a moment to say Merry Christmas and Happy New Year from the Haun Family. We are so thankful for each of you who journey with us! May the Lord bless your Christmas with family and loved ones, and give you moments of reflection to remember the most important reason we celebrate!